"So turn back, the Silence is Deafening."

CKY - "Escape from Hellview"

Mood: Contented.
Listening to: A bit of everything. Random winamp playlist.
Reading: "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo" by Stieg Larsson, still.
Watching: Finally got to watch "Stardust" on the TV. Really amusing, would like to read the book.
Playing: Haven't played anything for quite a while now. Nor VGs, nor table-tops.... not even solitary.
Eating:  Not much. On a diet. But had the most delicious meat and potato dish an hour ago.
Drinking: White warm coffee. No sugar.

I wrote this 3 days ago, on February 17, 2010.

It's been raining all day long. I just arrived to the usual joint where mom and I usually enjoy a warm, almost home-made meal, and devote attention.

And at such cheap prices I can afford eating here if not daily, every other day.

There's just Lety, cook, waitress, surrogate mom.

And on the background Gary Jules' "Mad World" is playing. It's picture perfect.

But before that Dido's "No Angel" album was playing.

All of this brought me back. Somewhere ten years ago. Those were both, the happiest and probably the most miserable years on my life (yet).

 

To him. To them. All of them. To those days I had time and energy to think about boys, and where they did ask me out.

I remember the video for "Here with me" and my mind flooded with the image of the short-dark-haired hottie laying on the bed at the end. He reminds me of A. so much.

And in a day just like this, we went out, walking on the street. Looking for a comfortable spot where my boyfriend couldn't (and wouldn't) find us. And we found this place like a door threshold. We sat on the floor, and started to kiss. My then boyfriend was a great kisser, but wasn't exactly a great guy. He despised me because I was a girl.

But A. ... he wasn't quite a great guy either. But something in him made me sigh. And he kissed me so fiercely it made my lips ache.

Those were awesome months. We would run, hide, go to his place, hoping his mom would be gone. And we couldn't keep our hands or lips off each other.

So we were kissin next to that wall when we heard the skies roaring. We got ourselves up, and started to run towards his place. The rain caught us still running, and we ended up all wet.

Still we got there, and it was an excuse for warming each other with our bodies. That was the first time I tasted rain with my kisses.

Rain water on warm, loving, avid lips.

For me that song, "Here with me" was meaningful in that moment about us.

Later on his song would become "My Favorite Game" by The Cardigans.

And my then boyfriend never knew his song was "Hunter", also by Dido.

 

 

Here with me - Dido 

 

Hunter - Dido 

 

My Favourite Game - The Cardigans